:: my thoughtz ::

:: 11.06.2002 ::

Nothin'
Sorry...

I got nothin to say tonight...lataz
:: 12:38:00 AM [+] ::
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No one...
Makes me feel...

...the way she makes me feel.

I really have no clue what I'ma do about this woman...but I need to get my shyt together, because I can't go on bein' shy and shyt...I really like this gyrl...I just gotta get it out of my mouth when I'm around her...oh well...Itz mad late and she just left...I'm just that much happier that I got to see her...sounds corny? Oh well...I'll be that...I'm goin to bed..lataz
:: 6:03:00 AM [+] ::
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Best Onez
Alwayz taken...

What up?

Pretty buzy weekend, but I had fun...Friday, me and some friendz (N,P, and L) chilled here at my krib...L and I cooked some dinner and we watched a DVD. We tripped out and stuff...it was kool...I woke up at 8am the next morning when i was to be at work at 8...greaaaaaat...itz all good...I made it there at 8:30...some people didn't even show up, so give me SOME credit. Saturday, I went with N and some friends to see "The Ring"...that was a weird but somewhat scary movie...I didn't like the way it ended...but there were some nasssssssssty azz parts in it...afterwards..we went to IHOP and got a little somethin to eat and called it a night...N and I came back to the krib and watched T.V. for like a half hour and then she bounced..which leaves me to my main topic...Why are the best ones always taken? I mean...I haven't told this gyrl this...not only because I'm just a shy person..but also because she has a steady man and I know she doesn't see me in the way that I see her...Let me tell you...its so sad that when you finally find someone that you can find no wrong in...that there's ALWAYS a catch...why the gyrl gotta have a man??? WHY!!??!! I mean...first off...she is so beautiful...when I first met her, I was honestly taken in by her smile...I had seen pictures...but they really do her no justice...she has such a pretty smile..arg!...anyway...she is starting school...she makes me laugh...she can sarcastically battle wit me...she even got the nerve to talk to me like she don't kno any betta'..but I sorta like that..no one has ever tried me the way she does...and itz like...do I like her so much because she is what I'd been looking for in a woman...or because I know deep down that I can't have her..you know you always want what you can't have...well I don't think that'z it, because I can't have a child and I KNOW i don't want the ability to...I'll let u females hold that down for me, thanx! But, in all seriousness...I like N...and I'm mad at myself for inviting her to go out with me and stuff, because the more I chill wit her, the more I'm going to attach myself to someone that I cannot have...but, I just like bein around her..she'z cool people...Nah mean? This ain't the Old West where i can take her man outside the O.K. Corral and have a draw for her heart...nah mean? Someone beat me to the punch...all i can do is watch from the sideline and think of how happy I could be wit' someone else's gyrl...I told my friend about the situtation and she told me that there are other fish in the sea...but finding fish is not the problem...finding that fish that you can hoist on your living room wal doesn't come around everyday..and as weird as it may sound...N is the fish I want on my wall...Oh well...I'm not gonna get her by sitting on my ass and typing about it...I'ma just chill..not press...and let God do hiz thing...only he knows what tomorrow brings...and only he will be able to help me out...damn..I've written a nice little novel here, so I'ma stop and holla at ya tomorrow...lataz

P.S.
N, if you read this...I'm just joking. (smile)
:: 3:50:00 AM [+] ::
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